Return of the Mac!

I love that song... but anyway... I'm back.

After the wedding and everything I was gone from WW for a little over 2 months. I decided almost 16 weeks ago that I was going back, no more excuses. When I re-joined I had gained 10 pounds and was kicking my ass for it too. In a matter of 2 months not only did I gain 10 pounds but I also lost all I worked so hard for by having to restart from scratch as a WW member. I mean I know I didn't lose the feeling of having lost 30 pounds but having to start over at 1 pound again seemed almost overwhelming!! So in my 3 month tracker I got out my whiteout and divided the weight-loss colum in half, what i've lost so far according to WW and what i've lost in total. I think it was the best thing to do for myself. I don't think I could have "started over" altogether!

I had a really hard time losing since i've rejoined which is also very frustrating! in 16 weeks last time I had lost almost 30 pounds! My new 16 week is tomorrow and i've only lost 12.6 friggin pounds! WTF? I found this time a lot harder! To keep on track and to keep track altogether! I'm finding food more tempting and my willpower is a lot less than it used to be. For about 5 weeks in a row I lost nothing, up/down, up/down until I was ready to pull my hair out!! I decided I needed to up my gym routine because my body was getting to used to what I was doing, I went to the gym 6 days a week and lost half a friggin pound! BUT! The next week I didn't give up, I kept at it and my hard work caught up to me and I lost 4 pounds in one week.

Losing 4 pounds in one week after not losing anything for so many damn weeks set me on my merry way to getting my head out of my ass and realizing why I was paying for WW in the first place.
I need this. I deserve this. And I CAN do this!!