Pep Talk

So I decided to go to Miramichi (my hometown) five days before we planned on it, to spend time with my sister and stuff. When we just come for the weekend we are bombarded with people that want us to visit and want to see R that it's too crazy! Espically on holiday weekends when there are more than one holiday dinner involved. That means one whole day with his family, and one with mine and it's too much on the baby, who likes her nice calm schedule we have at home. Anyway the point is, I had very little time to plan to come here, and this is the place I have the hardest time being OP. My sister went out the day before I got here and got lots of good food and stuff because she knows it's hard for me here, and I got a few more essentials today, so I'm feeling strong and knowing I can do this. I'll do my Wi here as well, which is keeping me OP knowing that I still have a WI even, if it's not in my normal meeting room.

I'll be eating lots of salad and veggies with my Easter dinners this time, and my sister and I are making WW cupcakes and brownies tomorrow so i'll have desert planned and decided upon! the best part is no one will no how low cal they are! I'm drinking all my water and then some because my sister has a water machine which I love! I wish we had one...we got one once but couldn't make it not taste like plastic, gross.

Anyway I'm feeling in control of this visit, and in control of myself. I need to loose this weight and I can't do it if I have to be in a certian home to stay on track.

I Made It!

I made it through the night without a complete breakdown! Hubby brought home a few snacks, I had enough to say I had some (and tracked it) and I'm making him take the rest of them to work to get them out of the house and out of my reach today. I woke up this morning with the baby smiling and the sun shining in my window and knew today would be different then yesterday and I needed to get over it! Today is a new day and I can do this ! :)
Now Kris is in the living room with Rowyn watching Bugs Bunny and I'm making some steel cut oats for breakfast, and enough for tomorrow as well! I'm running low of veggies and salad, so common payday! I love looking in my fridge and finding an abundance of yummy, good food...it makes me happy! And a picture of Rowyn watching TV in my bed because she makes me happy!

Mr. Hungry

Bah. Today I cannot stop thinking about food and wandering around the house in search of something that I know I won't find! I've been having a day today where I'm feeling overwhelmed and sad but for no reason I can pinpoint! I'm missing my family who live a little over 2 hours away, but I'll see them next Friday for Easter (which is VERY exciting!) I just want to eat and had no desire to do anything else today! It's too cold to go for a walk with the babe, and I was very lazy and hardly even cleaned anything today, although I'm sure I could have found something to do I was just consumed my thinking of food! I even fought the urge to call hubby at work and tell him to bring home a DQ chicken finger basket! But I didn't and I guess that's what matters. I'm here typing it out instead of searching out a way to sabotage myself (which I am a master at btw)

Shreded!

Well I started the 30 day Shred again! This time I'm 100% committed to it! Last time I did it I also was going to the gym 4-6 times a week, and since I MUCH prefer the gym I stopped doing it. Since I'm on Mat leave from my job at Goodlife, I'd have to pay for a membership, and since I'm on Mat leave I'm also broke lol Hence the commitment to the Shred this time around. I may not do it everyday but I'll do it! I really want to be able to reach Level 3, although it looks terrifying! After the first day Rowyn was much heavier and I forgot how much a good workout hurts so good! I love that feeling! Is that wrong or sadistic? I love to be sore the day after a workout, I take it as a sign I did something right.
So last week I tracked a lot more then I was, and it showed on the scales in a 1.4lbs loss this week, I felt good about it, I think I earned it this week. I've also been making fantastic meals lately and loving cooking!Like my Tzatiki pizza! Aside from my failed attempt at lentil soup, but I got some great tips from the WW boards, and thank the Gods for that because I have 4 containers of it frozen in the freezer! I will eventually, and somehow make it yummy and not suck!
That's about it from me today! Other than Kris and I took Rowyn to the market this weekend to scope out the meat and produce and here's Rowyn and I enjoying the sun at the Market!

Tomorrow is a new day

So last week I worked my butt off! I tracked almost everything, got in all my water and all that jazz...go weigh in and I'm UP! I mean only .2 but still, I really was prepared for a loss and bam! I know it doesn't seem like much (only a poop according to hubby lol) but I dunno, it's disappointing more or less because I felt this was the first week I would have earned a loss!
In light of that disappointment I've been slipping kinda this week...I has DQ one day, and yesterday...oh yesterday. I decided to bake french vanilla pumpkin muffins and then the downfall was I couldn't stop thinking about how ridiculously yummy they'd taste with damn icing! I've been eating way too much icing ever since :( Boo on me, however, I froze most of the muffins so there will be nothing to put icing on and I also took some to the ladies I work with, get them out of the house!
Tomorrow is a new day and even though I had fall-backs this week I have been eating tons of veggies, salad, fish and other good for me yumminess! My fridge is full of fruit, veggies, salad, hummus and tzatziki! I's fall right off the wagon if it wasn't for WW sourdough pretzels dipped in tzatziki! I also took an hour when Kris was off and cut off all my fruit and veggies and put them into containers so they are all ready to be eaten! yumyum!
Enjoy the picture of my amazing stocked freezer which brings me much joy, especially because it's organized...I love organization <3 I'm off to bed, I think all this sugar has given me a headache!

Baking Day!

Ok so I didn't get out for a walk today but I baked goodies all day! I made 2 loaves of Banana Bread, 24 Banana choc.chip muffins, and tried Black Bean Brownies! Seriously the brownies...*drool* to die for and low in points considering the goodness!!! Now Rowyn's in bed and i'm making two batches of pumpkin chocolate muffins! I'm forcing myself to freeze most of it because I will eat is all but I'm feeling like I have a plan for when the sweet tooth hits!

mmm Pudding

So another fairly decent day! Rowyn and I went for another walk today, about 3km or so, it was about 10 degrees! Beautiful! I also broke out the pedometer today because in the new WWM it talks about people loosing more when using one! I had 7287 steps today! and I didn't have it on all morning while I was cleaning and doing laundry, yay! They say that 1320 steps equals a kilometer so that's about 5 1/2 kms! I tracked everything except supper...we had macaroni and I was too lazy to add everything up, but I had a boatload of points left for the day.

I got Rowyn's cloth diapers and liners all washed today so i'm hoping to start her (mostly us really) slowly on them...There are two main reasons I can't go 100% cloth just yet. #1 being we have quite a few disposables left that people have given us and don't really want to waste them. #2,the main reason, is that we don't have enough liners yet. I'm mostly using AMP and Applecheeks bamboo liners but they are expensive! My MIL got me 6 diapers on line and they each came with 1 microfiber liner so I have those as well. I hope that those covers are decent, I can't really find any reviews on them, they are some brand I've never heard of that came from China I think. I'm excited to get going on them. Nothing like a cute little bum in a cloth diaper!

And i'm off to make some no fat chocolate pudding! MMMmmmm

Go me!

After last night and deciding that I was going to focus on tracking and baby steps today went well (and not only because it's my birthday!) I tracked everything and stay OP! Kris bought me a "birthday brownie" which was insanely high in points but I ate it and I tracked it! Kris, Rowyn, our dog Sprite and I all went for a 40 minute walk today which was great! I had a nice sweat on when I got home yay! I think after having a good day it's all I really needed to get my head back on straight! I'm also going to go back and read through the weekly booklets to give myself friendly reminders, and also write down some more recipes out of the books and magazines so I have them all in one place when I need them! Yay for good days!

Time Management

Oh man I guess I didn't realize how hard it would be to manage my time with a new baby! I've decided this week I'm going to focus only on tracking, something I've been having hard time with lately. I've came to the conclusion (again) that I'm putting too much pressure on myself to do everything perfectly and end up being overwhelmed and end up doing nothing 100%. I also need to get my 30 day shred DVD back from my friend who borrowed it. I'd like to do that for the 30 days then I'm hoping I'll feel confident enough to start the Couch to 5k. Fingers crossed! Tomorrow is my birthday and I think I owe it to myself to have a long relaxing bath and gather myself back together and focus on my goal...Being healthy and fit to show Rowyn nothing but good habits so her life can be all it's supposed to be !