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Today was not a top notch day for me. Didn't go to bed till after 3 am last night and didn't get up till noon today. Feeling quite sad and lonely today, it's week 3 of Kris being gone to Ft. Mac for shitty work. He'ss be home in 16 days by his count but I can't bring myself to start counting till single numbers. He's been working away now for 2 years, 4 weeks on/2 off, 8 weeks on/2 off, 5-6 weeks on/2 off. I hate it. The first time he left it sucked but I got used to being my myself with the dog. But it seems to only get harder every single time he comes and goes, like more of my heart and soul goes with him everytime he gets on that damn plane.
We got married almost a month ago and I was lucky to have him home for a week before and a week after. People said it wouldn't change after we got married becasue we've been togeher for 7 years... yeah well guess what, it changed. I don't know, I feel broken inside, half of my really is missing. I'm super glad to have found the WW board last week though. With Kris gone, and so busy at work with little time to talk, these girls give me the fuel and inspiration to keep going. I know in my head that today is just a sad day and I know tomrrow will be alright, but i'm having a tough time focusing on tomorrow.
I went out to the movies tonight with a girlfriend to see Wanted and it was good. A little more blood than I thought there would be but i liked it. Now i'm bad again and somehow managing to feel sorry for myself again lol. Havn't talked to Kris yet tonight, he's working overtime, which is great for him since it keeps him busy and not too focused on missing home. I rather be the sad one then have him feel like this.
I think i'll clean some litterboxes (oh what joy) and crawl in bed early tonight. Maybe if I get my sleeping back on track things will go better tomorrow!